Well, here I am - blogging. My ACP instructor, Sally, would be very impressed (or maybe disappointed) as she tried getting me to journal during my advanced care training and it was a monumental task for me to write a few words. That may be hard to believe as I am more than willing to share my opinion. But I do find writing different (meaning more difficult) and do not like it as much. Angel has been blogging now for a while and my sister has been at it for quite a while. As a way to share my point of view of what's going on in my home; here's my blog.
Having a child is an experience I've experienced before. Alix and Samuel are wonderful sons but for the most part, I was not there while they grew. I am certainly proud of them and while work (and relationship breakdown) kept me out of their home, I am willing to be there for them. So when Angel and I had a little one, I promised myself a different experience. I want to be there!!! Well, I'm there - with a daughter! I promised myself a different experience; I got it with Ava!
I am experiencing things again and they seem different. I'm not sure if it's because it's been so long since I've changed Sam's diapers, if it's because I'm sharing a home with Ava making me more involved, if it's because of my different attitude towards it, or if it's because Angel is here and sharing experiences with me (through her first time eyes). Either way, I am enjoying it greatly. Maybe I'm just getting to be an old softy as my grey hair increases?? Angel's appearance in my life has caused some dramatic changes in me - my relationship with my parents/family has improved, my outlook on life has improved, my internal happiness has improved. In many ways, she makes me a better person.
Don't think Angel is not getting any benefits of this change. Her daughter has a father that is incredibly in love with her and her mother. Being away from them is time that is not always looked forward to (contrary to what Angel may believe some times). Ava seems to have noticed my attention also; this morning she snuggled on my shoulder for about a minute and suddenly sat up, placing her nose on mine while staring into my eyes for about 15 seconds. I don't know what to say other than we were connected. Thanks Angel for such a great gift - a home with girls!!!
2 comments:
Awww! This is a wonderful first post to your blog!
I am glad that we have encouraged you to begin a blog, and that you find the time to keep writing!
Love you very much,
Angel
"...a home with girls!!!" Fits quite nicely considering that is what you were accustomed to growing up, isn't it?! ;)
I know, I know - it's different because now it's a home with girls you CHOSE and not one you were BORN with (at least where your lovely Angel is concerned!).
Loved the first post, Marc. I look forward to reading the ones to come!
Bonne journée!
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